Gacqlin

the world as i knew it is crashing around me i don't know which way to turn i feel as if my heart has gone to my knees and i can't control it it falls for the slightest hint of love in a guy and all i want is to keep that love is that so hard to ask for? i feel as if all the ppl in this world are dead inside my question is if hate is a strong word... why isn't love?

the pain so deep cuts my heart like razor wire the pain of this empty hole inside my chest the hole that i cannot fill myself. but i will have to use duct tape for now. like a temporary fixture to ease my pain i will fake my smile to perfection yet perfection is still my enemy

today is not my day i have a headache and i want to see you i want to be there for you but there is this glass wall i can see you i can smell you i can hear you i just can't touch you i can't taste your kiss i can't touch your face i bang on the glass nothing happens i start crying as i BEAT the glass till my hand is sore and red i look at you you cant see me i scream your name you can't hear me i pound on the glass again sobbing as i do finally i crash to the ground and curl up into a ball they ask me to leave and i scream NO! sobbing all the while i rock and sob myself to sleep when i wake up i look around i can't